I know a lot of Doctor Who fans hate you, especially here on Tumblr. And I know you’re aware of this. But I want you to know I don’t.
I’m not quite sure what that will mean to you coming from the blog of someone who clearly has some issues of the crazy-go-nuts variety to sort out, nor do I really think you’ll ever read this, but still it’s true. I don’t hate you.
In fact, I think you’re brilliant. To write stories so complex as to run through an entire season back and forth in the “wibbly-wobbly timey-wimey” fashion of Doctor Who takes some serious creativity and you have it in spades. I love that you can manage to make me scream, cry, and laugh all in the same story, even occasionally all at the same time. I love that you can take a completely ridiculous fifty-year-old television show about a silly old man from outer space and make me ponder very deep, very personal issues in my life and hopefully become a better person for it.
Do your stories have flaws? Of course they do! Everyone’s does! Lord knows my stories aren’t perfect and they never will be! But your stories are good and I love them. And, whether you would ever believe it or not, God has spoken to me so much lately through them… through you… to me.
The first four episodes of the 12th Doctor’s inaugural season have helped me understand so many things that I can’t even begin to properly explain without giving my life story, but if nothing else I can say that I feel I have a much better comprehension of fear and bravery, of letting terrible things encourage us to do wonderful things, and most importantly of the infinitely complicated and beautifully confusing enigma of God’s love, wrath, patience, compassion, and authority.
I know this all sounds like the ramblings of a lunatic on the internet because that’s precisely what it is. But, from the bottom of my heart, thank you. Thank you if only for this exchange:
"I see your mind, Doctor. I see your universe."
"And isn’t the universe beautiful?"
"I see beauty."
"Yes, that’s good. That is good. Hold onto that."
"I see endless, divine perfection."
"Make it a part of you. Remember how you feel right now. Put it inside you and live by it."
Thank you, sir, for letting God say something to me that I’ve been needing to hear for my entire life. And know that every day, I’m trying very hard to hold onto that and never, ever let go of it again. Thank you.